Care taking isn't like that, the other individual may not be capable of helping you at ALL. Thus comes the challenge when you're on your last leg, clutching at your last bent & mangled straw: who's going to help YOU when you're down? And also while you're just stuck trying to survive and make sure everything is done on a daily basis: what happens to your relationship with that individual?
He's telling me we're missing out on our relationship. He's telling me he doesn't like it, he wants things to change. However subtle the side-eye might be - it means something.
To chose me over food has always been a huge thing, and to see it so incredibly voluntarily (he was literally standing in front of a bowl full of food) was shocking. And slightly heart breaking.
I haven't had the time to devote to 'us' lately, actually in a long time, really.
That needs to change. I'm rarely Present, I'm usually too far ahead or thinking about the past. One of my biggest hang ups. This journey has turned out to be as much about improving myself as it has about him.